Is it Possible to have feelings for someone you can't have?

Yes we are talking about the biker boy - the one I lashed out at a few posts back. This just sucks - we had such a great connection and I miss talking to him everyday, I miss the text messages, the emails, and the way he made me feel about myself.

Yes - I know you my wonderful readers are like "Get over it already Capitol Hill"

I can't! I miss him!

Ugh, I hate feeling like this, I hate that he's married!

Like I said, I won't interfere, that is not my style, not to mention the ugly karma that comes with messing with a situation like that. I am all about Karma people - I like to keep it good.

Anyway, I had to vent - I hate that I developed feelings for this guy! Le Sigh.................................

You too can be an Ethiopian Princess lol

I forgot to mention yesterday's cab ride - oh man - I get in at the hotel and the first words out of this guys mouth are "You are very pretty today" bahahahahah - and he wouldn't shutup -- he asked me all types of questions that were none of his business and then he asked if he could marry me - oh yes I kid you not! I got a marriage proposal from my Ethiopian Cab Driver - I politely declined, its time like this I miss my engagement ring lol.

Anyway - I usually hate all things Starbucks - but the one across the street where I am working at here in San Fran - is awesome - it is hands down the friendliest Starbucks ever and I would so hang out with these people.

So this is the long weekend - usually on Memorial Day, I head over to Arlington National Cemetery and take flowers to my dad's grave site. He was a career Marine - died in 2002. He served in WW2 and the Korean War - got out just before I was born -- he was 48 years old when I was born - parents had me kind of late. Anyway, take a few moments out on Monday and remember what Memorial Day is all about!

Have a great weekend all!

Sigh

Deleted the ole Ted Kennedy post - so not to offend anymore people - sigh

It wasn't meant to be heartless, they were merely my views and my thoughts. I also said I wouldn't wish that on anyone. I have no respect for the Senator or his entire family for that matter - last time I recall I am American and I have the right to have that opinion. I hear people bash President Bush everyday and I see their little countdown clocks on people's blogs and myspaces, but reserve my opinion of how silly I really think it is. Guess what, I like President Bush - I worked on his fathers campaign in college. Oh no! Someone likes W - call out the squad.

The reason I started this blog was to vent about all things DC and things going in my life - now if you don't agree with that - that's fine, but I am not big on being called heartless.

I am a Republican - a moderate one - not a "crazy right winger" that people perceive all Republicans to be. I was a staunch Rudy Supporter and sad he isn't the man - he isn't perfect either.

Most of you would hate to know my views on Obama - but I will leave those out of this blog , because I don't feel like going into WW3 on my views about that man.

With that my sincere apologies to all those offended by my Ted Kennedy post.............that's why I removed it.

When I come back from Cali - my hair will look like this

Now if I could look exactly like Carrie Underwood - but my hair will be looking like!!!!

Night 2 of no sleep

So its going on midnight here - I even watched them Roast Flava Flav on Vh1, now that was a hoot - kind of felt bad for Brigette Neilson, the insults were just plain wrong and I don't think she understood what half of them met. I was flipping between that and that hotmess of a show Tila Tequila - wow she is skankarific. She is actually a cute girl - just sad she exploits herself the way she does, but she probably makes more money than all of us, so I guess she should just hate the game lol.........................

It is freaking noisy on the streets of San Fran, some freaking truck keeps using its backup sound - so I sit here and read blogs. I am about to throw on my MP3 player (no I don't have an iPod, but looks like I may break down and buy one) and try to go to sleep somehow.

Looks like no one is coming out here now, last friend cancelled due to family emergency and I totally understand that. This just kind of sucks - I am not one for venturing out by myself. Airfare back to DC for the long weekend is just too much.

Anyway gonna take some allergy meds with the hopes of drowsiness and throw on the mp3 player.

The SF Fire Department and other fine ramblings

The fire station is next to my office while here in lovely SF. Its always fun walking by there every morning and every afternoon - I thought only construction workers did cat calls. Granted this is excellent for my low self esteem, I just find it amusing.

I do think I need to invest in some earplugs though - the streets of SF are freaking noisy all night long, from the homeless screaming, to sirens every fking 15 minutes. I slept like shit last night.
I did however partake in some fine Italian eating, pasta made fresh. I had some Gnocchi and damn it was good.

Now lets discuss my man situation and how badly it sucks and how I miss biker boy -- yes, he is married and yes I am staying away. Sadly, I kind of fell for him pretty quick and it really sucks. Never had a guy make me feel so pretty the way he did. Oh well, that little thing called marriage and kids just isn't my thing and I am not about to become a homewrecker. It's not my thing.

However, this leads me to my next topic - Open Marriage - I read two freaking articles in two different magazines last night discussing about people doing this now instead of divorce. I don't know how to think about that. Does the husbands girlfriend and the wifes boyfriend come over for Thanksgiving and Christmas as well? I think its kind of messed up in a way - just what exactly does it entail - I think its strange. Can't you picture it now - a double date with the couples hook ups of the week - kind of strange if you ask me. Wonder is biker boy was pondering that with me - oh how strange...................

Yes, I overused the word strange in the last paragraph - send the grammar police after me lol.......

have a great day!

Week Two San Francisco

Ah yes still here I am --- 3.5 weeks to go.................geesh
Tired of living in a hotel actually - the laundry guys ignored my instructions not to take my underpants out of the lingerie bags - when I got my laundry - my underwear was all folded up and now I am skeeved out. I purposely went out and purchased 6 lingeries bags for this specific purpose, because I was informed the coin laundry places nearby are creepy. I should have bought 30 pairs of underwear lol................................so ick......................

So, I have to rave about the pizza I had the other night - the name of the place is Pizza Orgasmica - great name of a pizza joint and check out their site for the names of the funny pizzas they have like "The Virgin" and the "Kama Sutra"

Great Pizza!

Hoping my one friend comes out this weekend - its up in the air because her mom is sick...........so whatever she decides I understand.

Well, thats all for now...........its still Monday here and Tuesday already in DC..........